So we can stay like this forever, and we'll never miss a party cuz we keep them going constantly

Right now, all i can think about is how the weather is reflecting my mood as well as certain lines in songs on the radio. The weather-cold,miserable,all wet (me crying),And the songs- Missing Devin and Lauren. Ugh. what happened to the good ol' days...

Well last week was horrible with tests and quizzes in each class....I just wanted to like barf (well not really) then the weekend came. Bliss. Friday afternoon, Shelbez and Devin came over my house and we hung out....then Brossle came and we hung out and showed each other sick dance moves. Then watched some tv. then everbody went home.

 Saturday Shelbez and Devin came over my house again and we hung out some more. Then we went to shelby's church to help clean it (yes volunteer hours!) then we went to my house again and hung out some more, then 'round 4:30ish Devin left to go to a dinner thing with some other family. Shelbez and I headed back to her house before we left to go to a four way birthday party....to make cards..... then we left to go to the Kilgers (which is where the party was held) and that was 15 min away. And Morgan came too. So we got here and we were one of the firsts there....then waited for Devin. Then Nicole walk sin and tells us the hvae been here for like 10 min or something......so we got out to his car and find them (that is Devin and richard) carrying cake and ice cream. And while evin is walking up I see his carring a gift with a plug coming out of the wrapping. And he gives me the gift and a card and says "happy birthday!" well you can guess that that probably just made my day. And I opened it when we got inside...and it was aaaaa.....STROBE LIGHT!! YESSS!! so yeah I was all surpriesed....cuz he like made it and everything in one of his classes...and it was wicked sweet.... Later on we all got glow sticks and got on teams and played capture the flag. It was fun. But got boring after awhile. So we stopped and all hung out exploding up glow sticks and stuff. Then we all went downstairs to try out my cool strobe light....which was super fun/cool! yeha then I hung out with lauren and her gang for a bit...after that I went home with shelbez and morgan....then went to bed....

Sunday I "tried" to do homework....but my mind was elsewhere.....oh and I woke up at 6:15 in the morning to go swimming till 9....to go "swimming" that is....but thats another story...anyways i was super tired and kept falling asleep everytime I tried to start my homeowrk....so I just put it aside and wrapped presents for my 2 bestest pals in the world. And then makde some cds. In the afternoon I called shelby and asked her if I could go with her (so I wouldn't have to drive by myself) to the Burns' going away party that evening.
Well as it tured out Devin was at her house so I was like alright I'll come round 5:45ish before we have to leave. SO I showed up round then and we all hung out. Then we went to the Kilgers again for the going away party. It was pretty fun. I got to hang out with all my super cool friends and such....and tried not to think about what was coming later. It was really hard though. A couple of times during the party when some of Devin and Lauren's friends were leaving and they were saying goodbye...I almost just completely lost it....but I held it together... at around 10ish shelby and I had to go so she could be home at 10:15 and I 10:30 (i know! my parents were laetting me stay out pretty late for a school night!!)...so then we were about to leave when the parents were like "oh no dont go yet we have closing prayer," so we stayed for that....and like at the beginning of the prayer I was thinking to myself "oh I won't cry. I'm too happy to cry. I just spent about 3 hours talking to my friends..." and then right in the middle of the prayer someone said "...and we hope that the burns have a safe flight..." and my eyes started to get all watery. Then at the end....lets just say lots of tears were shed.

Today started out horrible. Well last night I didn't get enough sleep....cuz of certain things...then this morning in the car.....didn't help either. And when I was in Mr. Connors room before school started. I couldn't say like anything. Then randomly I just thought I couldn't take it anymore so I just like left to go find shelby....and of course when I'm walking down the hall way....I see her....and....yes guess who.... the mystery man....who else!?!?! SO yeha that made my day.....and of course Shelbys...which was good.  SO then after first Devin was suppoed to meet me for 2nd...but like something happened. so I got called down after 2nd and saw him in the guidance office...and he said he had to go...but his flight didn't leave unilt like 5:30...and he didn't have to leave for the flight unilt like 4:00ish...so he wanted the shelbster and I to go to his house after school and hang before he left.

So after school we went to his house....and hung out with him and lauren and her cool friends while we wathed the movers put everything in the 18 wheeler and made up plans to try and stop the movers. Then...once again it was time to say goodbye....and once again tears were shed.....but I had all my bestest friends by my side....Then after they left Selbs and I hung around with Steph, Kelly, and Kiley, cuz we needed and they needed friend support. Then once everyone else was gone shelby and i hit up Burger King to try and cheer ourselves up....

Then I dropped Shelby off at her house and went back to mine. And when I got home I was about to go upstairs when my mom said from the living room...: "oh, by the way Devin left you something on the doorstep...I put in on the counter in the kitchen..."  So I walked to the kitchen and I saw some flowers and a note sitting on the counter....

....and more tears were shed....




Eve 6 - "Here's to the Night"

So denied
So I lied
Are you the now or never kind?
In a day
And a day love love
I'm gonna be gone for good againAre you willing
To be had
Are you cool with just tonight?
Here's a toast
To all those who hear me all too well

Chorus:
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name
On the line
Along with place and time
Wanna stay
Not to go
I wanna ditch the logical
Here's a toast
To all those
Who hear me all too well<

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Bridge:
All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go

Here's a toast
To all those who know me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon


Green Day - Good Riddance (TIme of Your Life)


Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.




Kenny Logins - Footloose (cuz Devin was singing it)

I've been working so hard
I'm punching my card
Eight hours for what?
Oh, tell me what I got
I've got this feeling
That times's just holding me down
I'll hit the ceiling or else
I'll tear up this town

Now I gotta cut loose
1-Footloose, kick off the Sunday shoes
Please, Louise, pull me off of my knees
Jack, get Mack, come on before we crack
Lose your blues, everybody cut footloose...

You're playing so cool, obeying every rul
Deep way down in your heart
You're burning yearning for the sun
Somebody to tell you that life ain't passing you by
I'm trying to tell you
It will if you don't even try
You'll get by if you'd only

Cut loose, footloose, kick off the Sunday shoes
Oo-wee Marie shake it, shake it for me
Woah, Milo come on, come on let's go
Lose your blues, everybody cut footloose...

You got to turn me around...and put your
Feet on the ground, gotta take the hold of all
I'm turning loose
(rpt 1...)



Green Day - Wake me Up When September Ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends